June 7, 2009

my Thoughts | entry 2

Waking up this morning. It seems things are just as foggy as before.  My life is in a type of web that i try to untangle and seperate but keeps sticking together. A bit frustrating.

Desire, love, friendship, work, money, creation...  What am i creating?  Or perhaps the better question is, what can i not create? What are my decisions going to be as time progresses towards more seperations, unions, reunions, failures, and successes?

i fear my present more than my past or future.  i look ahead with a security of mind that everything goes it's course and that the story will always be looked upon with fondness by me as i do so now looking at the past.  However, in the present i experience so many desires and oportunities that i fear i'm loosing what i try to gain... i don't want to loose.  i don't want to posess either. So, how do i seize these things which ellude me?


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